Saturday, February 27, 2010

So many lonely people; so many faithful friends.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

A Christian?

Sometimes I just think, that its hard for people to be Christians. We all mean well, but we don't 'do' well. We know where we're supposed to be, but our legs are frozen. We can't be automatically strong, but we can work our way up to that point, with God's help. And then you hear all those people saying stuff like: " I'm weak. God knows I'm weak, but he still loves me and accepts me". Ya that is true, but are you actually living for Him? Does He want to continue in a relationship with someone that acts like us? If we truly imagine our relationship with God, as a relationship with someone special, we might do things allot differently.

It's like saying you are married to your spouse, and yet we sleep around with other people, or never come 'home'. Are you really married? Legally. Do we act like we are married? No. We take our 'wedding' rings off whenever we feel like it, so people wont be able to tell if we are married or not, so you can appear single, or for whatever reason there may be. Why be married in the first place if you are going to act like that? Seriously. Same reasons go for living for God;why be a Christian in the first place? Can people tell that you are a Christ follower? Or is the only way they know by saying that you "believe in Him". We believe in Him, but we hide him (literally) so people wont judge us and think we are nerdy, reserved Christians.So many people hate Christians, it's true. So why would you want to be hated? Why not act like you aren't one? Why not be a liberal Christian?( not the political meaning of liberal) We can be accepted more. Let's live like everyone else, but I'll just tattoo Jesus on my arm so I will never forget what He did for me.
Are we actually making his death worth it, by how we live?
Yes, we mess up, but is our messing up a continuous habit? Or something that we regret and grieve in our hearts for what we have done against God? Do we even try? Do we try to live like God?

Lately I've been realizing that this process, and lifestyle, of living for God, is requiring that I cast out things that aren't like Him. Just like it would be in a marriage. If your wife/husband is a drug addict, or any other kind of addict, that certainly puts strains on a marriage; gets in the way. But if that hindrance is put away with, and there is a sincere heart to turn around, the marriage will eventually restore. If you work at it. Same thing with God.

I think some people like the idea that they are weak Christians, I don't. If you enjoy wallowing in your self pity of being a weak christian, and try to make yourself feel better by saying that "Jesus loves you", and do not make any changes to try to live like Christ, you might as well, leave God, and don't you dare say that you are a follower of Christ, because you aren't, by the way you are living.
How many of us think: "What will my God, think if I do this?" Let's addmit it, we just don't care.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Rich Mullins

Sometimes the night was beautiful
Sometimes the night was so far away
Sometimes it seemed to stoop too close
You could touch it but your heart would break
Sometimes the morning came too soon
Sometimes to day could be so hot
There was so much work left to do
But so much You'd already done

Oh God you are my God and I will ever praise You
Oh God you are my God and I will ever praise You
I will seek you in the morning and I will learn to walk in your ways
And step by step you'll lead me and I will follow you all of my days

Some times I think of Abraham
How one star he saw had been lit for me
He was a stranger in this land
And I am that, no less than he
And on this road to righteousness
Sometimes the climb can be so steep
I may falter in my steps
But never beyond your reach

Friday, January 15, 2010

style god

Just a quick vent of what's racing through my head:
Don't let style become a god. Ive noticed how easily it is to make a god out of something without even realizing it. Like a frog in cool water in a pot. He'll stay there, and as you turn up the heat, he doesn't realize the temperature change, because it is very subtle. The next thing you know...he's boiling. lol (not really funny) If you care about how you look, we should all care to a certain extent, but if you make it such a high priority, it is really easy to start worshiping "self image". How much time do we spend thinking of God,or worshiping Him with our thoughts and everyday life? How much time do we spend trying to look cool? I'm not saying don't look "stylish", I'm just saying be careful that you don't make it into a god.
There are other things in life that can easly become god's in our lives: facebook, food, shopping, our own selves. I mean its easy, I guess, to become self absourbed, our souls are contained within our earthly body. K, I'm rambling (I really dislike that word), I'll stop for now.

"You shall have no other gods before me. You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of ANYTHING in heaven above or earth beneath or in the waters below. You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, but showing love to a thousand generations of those who love me and keep my commandments." -God. From Deuteronomy Ch. 5

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Notes at the Kiddy Section (becuse I do not have Word on my my new comp)

-White wax crayon (cray-ON) NOT (crown)
-Sewing needles
-Sharpie marker
-Water-based markers
-Sealant spray (for photos)
-White out
-Colored pencils (this little boy keeps coming near me and freaking me out...I think he has a crush on me)...(ok now he is sitting by me. ARG! Go away!)

-Ok, I just got kicked out of the kiddy section because I had my computer plugged in. Kids might "trip on the cord". The lady was nice that told me to leave. I was only in there cause the whole place was so packed! Anyway, now I am in a big, comfortable chair with "adults". lol

-"free flowing, water-based paint. Ink.

-Condensed milk- and foam stamps.

-Crackle paste, molding paste.

-Distressed ink pads,alcohol inks.

-Rubber stamps.

Monday, December 28, 2009


I hate feeling alone
Like you are the only one in the world
I've felt like that many times
And the only one in the world who understands is Him.
Sorrow is hard to deal with
You never know when it will come

Monday, November 30, 2009

Coming to an End

This is the DC Troop WWI monument in DC. I love architecture, especially this style, which I cant remember what this particular kind is called.
I live in DC right now(well when I'm not living in TN) and I love it.
Well, I need to get back to thinking about what I need to be doing to prepare for my final exams. I'm under extra amounts of stress now, most are.

"Ta ta for now" - Tigger?